Precious

Saturday I was having an off day. It was one of those days I felt unnoticed by the people around me. Sure they saw me (it wasn't like I was invisible, I'm not that good :) but it didn't seem like they could see I was having a tough day and needed to feel connected. Often this happens and I wonder how often I myself do this(Not taking notice of where someone is at.) Lets face it, life gets busy and it's so easy not to be in the present.

A few days ago I was feeling this exact way and I remember just wanting someone to be there for me to stoke my hair and my forehead and the side of my face. Of course this is something I wouldn't want to ask for, it was something that would mean something if unasked for. I brought my request to God and let him know my need and asked if possible for him to fill that need. He came through in the most unexpected way (although he always does doesn't he?!).

Like I said, I was having an off day. I was at my sisters and doing my best to enjoy my precious nieces and nephew (Trying to be in the present and connect with them, despite the way I felt). The oldest is five and has autism. Normally this means she doesn't speak much, she repeats things you say, but there has been a remarkable improvement in the last month. She is not just using the same phrases, she seems to be connecting her words with her feelings :) I can't describe it but I feel a special connection with her, one that transcends words. It's as if there are moments that we look at each other and understand one another without a word.

Well, today it was more than that. I asked her if she wanted a hug. She was cuddled up laying down on the couch. She said "come here" as she reached her hands out towards me. I went to her and she said here, and patted her hand on her chest. She reached for my head and pulled it to her and I kid you not she took her hands and stroked my hair and the side of my face. My eyes instantaneously filled with tears. He had heard the cry of my heart seen my need and provided so preciously for me in that moment. It was all I could do not to burst out crying. It was something I had given to him with no expectations and he had shown himself to me in the most unexpected way.

It reminds me of the verse that says: "Ask and it will be given to you"